Partial goals

Things I need to do before I can move back to Uppsala:
- finish my sex change
- finish my autobiography
- open up about my hallucinations and delusions and probably be diagnosed schizophrenic or some dissociative disorder
- get help for that
- learn to live on my own and take care of myself
- some therapy on that
- start studying again
- get a job

See you next decade... No, honestly. This is gonna take some time and a lot of effort. I need to have my gender legally changed before I can start blabbing about Anna and that stuff (just in case, don't wanna end up half-done if they would consider me not actually transsexual because of my split personality thingy going on). Just getting there will take a few years, with all the surgery, waiting, healing between surgeries and more waiting, and get the approval from RR (Rättsliga Rådet, which will be the instance that will decide if they can legally change me from female to male).

And because I have a feeling I won't be able to get better mentally until I start telling the truth to my psychologists, it will take a while before I can start leading a better life. Which I will have to in order to start studying and eventually to get a job. Even if I can't get a full-time job, maybe a part-time. Something that gives me a bit more cash than I have today. It's interesting that according to welfare systems in the U.S. I'm on the lowest income level (actually half of that) and can be classified as poor. That's a little cruel... I do get by, can pay my bills and afford food, even my smoking habit - but that's about it. I don't have a dime left for anything fun really.

So yeah, a part-time job would be nice in the future. As of now I can barely study a quarter of full-time without invoking hallucinations, anxiety, severe headache and paranoia. Great times!

About finishing my autobiography is mostly to have something fun to look forward to as well, and not just a lot of tedious work.

If things go the way I want them to (not dying from suicide on Gotland) I will have to be both mentally and physically stable and be able to take care of myself in order to find a place to live in Uppsala. Cause if I'm gonna be living there, it would be great if I wasn't so dependent on my family and having to live in a special service resident.

I really do want to move back to Uppsala, so consider it a long term goal or something. But it's just not really appropriate or something at the time being. Who knows, maybe one day I'll show up with a house warming event on Facebook or something. You'll all probably be middle aged or something by that time, but still.