Hair

I've been thinking a little lately, that I really missed my sidecut... so I kinda fixed that just now. Same as I had before, like a year or two back if anyone remembers, but reversed. Had on left side, now it's on the right. And I shaved off a smaller spot to not thin out the rest of my hair so much. Also kept the sideburn, and it's very damn long! Probably gonna break in due time though, since it's very thin from the middle and down, but still. I’m also dyeing my hair blacker (is that even a word? Well, it is now). The blacker the better. I’m planning on going to a hair dresser to trim the ends of my hair, cause doing that on my own just doesn't work with the mirrors I have. Can't see the back of my head no matter how I twist and turn the unhinged bathroom mirrors, and I definitely can't see halfway down my back. Or reach that far without unhinging my arms as well. So sometime in late October is the idea. So I’m having a little hair make-over and maintenance going on. I'll post a picture later, it's wet and tangled right now.

Goddamn cold in here now... gonna have to think of what to do when it gets really cold. Can't have the window open 24/7 when it's freezing outside. That would kill my plants! And I’d freeze my ass off. At the moment I close the window every once in a while to get the heat up, and open it again when I'm choking on cigarette smoke. Also don't wanna damage the apartment with too much smoke.

So anyway... gonna rinse out the hair-dye soon, and strangely enough I don't think I have anything more to write. I think I’m a little dumb today, or rather have some sort of writer's block. Not much going on in my head right now. That's weird... While I was at the hospital in Visby yesterday, I started thinking about my mastectomy again, and I'm really starting to long for it! I want an appointment scheduled now! Eager as hell... I'm thinking of talking to my psychiatrist next time I see her, about if I could get some help for quit smoking, some program or something. I really need to do that for my surgery and I think it's for the best to start that as soon as possible. I have no long term goal to be nicotine free, just for the surgery and the healing time after. Kinda important for it to heal up nicely, and I don't want to mess that up on purpose, cause I'm just not quite that stupid. Gah, I want it done now! About that, I’m gonna have my second shot of testosterone again next week. Can't believe it's already been six weeks.