Lashing out on my mother

I said I'd do it, so today I told my mother about me being demonkin. She reacted exactly as I thought she would. She didn't believe me and told me that "everyone feels uncomfortable in their own skin and wants to be more than just human" which is totally beside the point, however. I told her I knew she wouldn't believe me, and frankly I just left it at that. It's not in my place to try to convince her of anything. But then she mixed in my transsexualism which really put me off guard. Like where the hell did that come from? It's not uncommon for otherkins to also be transgender. And I'm tired of always having to defend my own gender and explaining why changing my body is so important to me.

Sometimes I think she lives in her own little world and don't even want to understand other people's worlds. Cause really, we all have our own little world, just that some people's worlds are so damn inpenetrable you just wanna give up and walk away. My mother is like that, she lives with a lot of physical pain 24/7 but refuses to take any medication for it, but complaining constantly about it is okay. She thinks everyone else should just do that too. Suck it up and accept things for what they are, and not do a shit about it.

I know that in her heart she wishes that I should just "accept" my body for what it is: female. That sure I can identify as male, but she thinks it is, I quote: unnecessary. She's such a closet case herself, by the way. She just wishes that she had the curage to do exactly what I do. Yeah, she's also transgender, but would never utter that word. And that pisses me off! She literally knows what it's like to live with a body of the wrong gender, but refuses to accept that I won't put up with my wrong-gendered body and want to something about it!

I just don't understand her deal. Cause how the hell can it be so much misconception between two transgendered people in the same family?

*I say "she" cause that is to her preference. She's very deep inside that closet. I think this is much because of how she was raised and also because my father would never accept her coming out as trans. But that doesn't make it okay to act the way she does towards me.