Sometimes I think that religion made me even more of a nutjob. And when I start waving in my otherkinness into my religion, it almost sounds like I think I'm the anticrist. How stereotypically psychotic isn't that!? Come on, if I'm gonna be psychotic, can't I at least do something original? I just can't help but thinking that actually diagnosed schizophrenics who believe they are Jesus, are a totally ridiculous - but then I sit here totally convinced that I'm a satanic demon. So what's more ridiculous here really? My own biased thoughts and beliefs, perhaps. That I'm for real, but those wannabe-Jesus people are just a sad joke.
Trying to see this objectively, in case you're wondering what I'm doing. If someone, a complete stranger, was to compare me to one of those who think they are Jesus, would they think I'm for real or just another looney? Okay, now I see it... And somehow, that makes me laugh! I'm really not the sharpest knife in the box, but as someone once said: I don't suffer from insanity, I'm enjoying every minute of it. Well, not every minute, but today it's quite funny!
Do I really think me being a demon is some sort of delusion? Nope. I know it's for real. I'm not "sent from Hell" or a demon in flesh and blood. I don't actually have wings, a tail, claws and horns - it just feels like it. I don't have any magic powers or possess some great evil. I wasn't "sent" or "summoned" to harm mankind. I'm simply reincarnated. You don't have to be crazy to believe in reincarnation, it just takes a little faith. I do not suffer from clinical lycanthropy, or in any way believe that my body is the one of a demon's. I identify as a demon, pretty much the same way as I identify as male, or bisexual. It's in the mind, heart and soul. Yes, I believe even sexual orientation and gender identity can extend beyond life and death. Because that's the way it is for me. I was a male demon in love with a male elf and I just still fucking am.
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