Ended up sleeping the whole day away as well. Why, this is going well... Had to force myself up at 17:30 or so cause I really need to go grocery shopping before the store closes. Almost out of oat milk again. I really don't want to go... cause it's cold, dark and cringy weather and I need to go tomorrow as well for cigarettes. It's time for me to start my extra heater again, this coldness is starting to get uncontrollable.
I just ate the most pathetic excuse for a chicken salad, with just chicken, cucumber and dressing cause my lettuce was not in an edible state anymore. That's basically all I can have today with 45 calories left to go. For some reason my mind took me to what I'm gonna do that 9th anniversary in February next year. As I can hardly even tolerate any sex jokes anymore I started imagining if I'd ever tell my classmates about me being asexual and grossed out by sex, leading me to why I think I identify as asexual in the first place.
All that crap that I never processed, that got worse two years ago and just damaged me further. Don't know if I'd ever tell them, don't know if it's any of their business. I just can't go anywhere today, it just doesn't feel right at all. I'll have to either make do with black coffee or no coffee tomorrow until I can get this damn ass to the store.
I'm bored again, and have nothing to write about. Nothing interesting at least. I think I'll go to bed soon, just bored, tired and slow. Can't eat anything from 23:00 o'clock cause I have such blood tests that needs to be taken at 11:00 tomorrow. And I don't know how to deal with my night cravings if I can't sleep.
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