I feel you too

Thank you Y for sharing that song, it made me both shiver and smile. I think, I feel you too, in some way at least. I just read your latest text about V and I am in tears. I, like you, don't cry very often, but I do now. I can't imagine how hard this must have been for you and I'm lacking words.

But you pulled through that day as well, and I do still believe in you. I also think, perhaps maybe, that I also believe a little bit in V. She seems strong too. You might be right, I might like her too. Even though she's suicidal she seems to have a lot of spirit and she seems to be fighting so much. I can't help but thinking it was brave of you to go as far out as you did for her sake.

Psychiatry really is that rotten, you know I've been in a similar place as well. Through all the times I've been admitted to various psych wards (I think it's 7 different ones in total now) they've all been like that. I recognise that false care the staff there gives and all the shit they try to impose on you. That's one of the reasons I won't be going back there freely anymore, but I know, that's not an option for V. And I really do think somehow, that it's still better than prison, if you'd want my opinion. Though I've never been to prison but I can imagine it's worse still. It's something I've always tried to stay out of.

Yes, she still lives and I hope she will continue doing so, but I can't help but caring about you more. You too, need to live just as much as her. I might not be the strongest of us two, but I'm feeling alright telling you this, that if you ever need to lash out a bit, or just anything, I'm here for you as well, as much as I can. Part of the reason why I responded to your message on Facebook, it wasn't only for me, it was for you too.