Wednesday, 21 October 2015

Control and disdain

Count every step on the way
move a little further put everything on delay
my thoughts lead me sideways and astray
and I know this obsession is going to stay

My own private addiction
reduced to the ashes of restriction
and I'm a constant contradiction
weighing pros and cons of this affliction

My feelings so heavy I have the urge
to never stop eating until I can purge
and I'm trying to disconnect I'm on the verge
of drowning in the smallest surge

My fluttering heart and constant pain
every morning wondering will I lose or gain
my mind so starved I'm practically insane
try to reason with control and disdain

Pacing forward I can't stop this mess
how I measure calories by success
it's devouring me but I can't confess
second time's a habit I won't live unless

No comments:

Post a Comment