Like poetry

I've come to realise as to why I do like rap music sometimes. Yeah, you can hate me all you want, but I am open-minded about music. For real, not poser open-minded. Well, the reason is that it's basically poetry. If you think about it that way, it could almost be a form of art. As long as the lyrics contain something that I can relate to on some level. And surprisingly enough, I actually can relate to a lot of it. When they “sing” about depression, messy love, self harm and various addictions.

Those are common themes in the little rap music I’ve come to appreciate. And on some very small level I am strangely drawn to the street style, maybe because most of the people living by that lifestyle are also broken and fuck ups just trying to get by. They're anarchistic and chaotic like myself.

In clothing I sometimes tend to create a semi original mixture between street and goth. Black baggy pants (usually construction workers pants, you know those made of extra endurable fabric with lots of practical pockets? They are also very cheap, and come in all sizes), huge band t-shirts and black hoodies (either completely black, or with a nice goth/punk inspired print), accessorise with key chains and lots of gothic necklaces. I usually refer to this style as “street goth” or “shabby goth” showing just how fucking poor I am and have to make do with what I can find cheap or second hand. Okay, I’m not trailer trash poor, but I definitely don't have enough cash to buy “real” gothic clothing.

Though I did actually buy a new hoodie at BlueFox when I was in Stockholm in August. A black one with red details and a print of a zombie saying “Zombie apocalypse – they will tear your soul apart” for 500 kr. I’m really careful with what I buy new, it can't be something that I’ll let collect dust somewhere.