Getting by

I think I should name my fly or something. Cause "You annoying piece of shit" is just a bit too long. I put out a lump of sugar for it. So maybe it won't touch my drinking glass. What, I really don't have much of life, huh? Considering flies pets and talking to my plant. I'm just lonely, and still somehow don't want to see people. Maybe plants and flies are enough company then. Oh, and spiders, they're actually kind of nice guests compared to flies.

Insects and spiders, I've always liked them in a way. Was fascinated by them as a kid and though not so fascinated anymore, I still like them. As long as they're not annoying, that is. Maybe that's why I like their company, was my thought.

Got a new appointment at Huddinge by the way, 16th July, 15:00 o'clock. Don't know how to plan around that to be honest, cause I will most likely be in Uppsala at that point. Perhaps I could get there "on my own" if I have someone to guide me, or that my mother could go there and help me out and then go back home again. It will probably work out one way or another though.

I think my fly is both blind and stupid, but I'm starting to like it somehow. Maybe we have something in common... or not, I don't know. Yes I realise this is silly. Oops, just killed it. Oh well, it was pretty annoying and I just had enough.

Me: I broke through my pills again.
Anna: But why?
Me: Cause I don't want to stop talking to him.

I'm doing some transmogrification runs with my night elf druid tonight. Going for one of my favourite leather sets, since I got tired of her robe with mismatched belt and gloves. Sure it's a nice robe (it looks like she's wearing a leather corset over it and it gives her a nice cleavage) but I felt like having a more complete outfit, since she's level 90 and all now. Ah, there. All done and mogged. She looks fabulous.

Hah another sandwich today, which explains that my food anxiety is also getting fed more. Fed with feelings of guilt, shame, frustration and whatever. So I have to go fasting again tomorrow. Only drinking water, tea, coffee and smoke a lot. Maybe having a simple fresh salad. They got a salad bar in the grocery store, so I can just go there and grab whatever I want and then pay for it. Eat by a bench in the lovely weather or going home again to eat there. I have to be up early enough for it though, so that it's not closed, I mean. Hmm yes, that is a plan. A little different lunch that day.

I see it as that I only have lunches these days. One sandwich on the middles of the day/early afternoon and the rest of meals are empty. No more chewing on things. Just that sandwich. I think I'm getting along fine with only that.