A little late

I find it so sad that so many want to be young forever. I just want to be alive.

Just got this wacky idea that I had to see "Napoleon Dynamite" only because the male blood elves in WoW dance like in the movie. It's like my favourite dance in the game. The movie wasn't so bad either, though a little predictable. But it was a little too long and it's 4:33 and I really should go to bed now.

I really have to remember going to the bank on Monday, so that Odium won't get pissed at me for paying them too late. You have no idea how hard I'll kick myself if I screw that up. Really, no idea.

Do you ever get that feeling that someone's watching you? You know, like from inside you? I get that sometimes and it's kinda creepy. Like when I think people can hear my thoughts, I become awkward and try to "perform" so that the mystic person invading my mind won't be disappointed.

Kinda crazy, I suppose, but it makes me uncomfortable nonetheless. Like maybe it's a kind of paranoia, or that it stems from it. Cause I am pretty paranoid and it gets worse when I think someone's invading my mind. Even though the logical thing is that there is no one trying to see the world through my eyes and successfully so.

I'm just out of my mind to truly believe that. But I'm glad that my psychotic tendencies are just tendencies and not full blown. When they are, I'm really lost cause it's fucking scary to become completely, or almost completely, detached from reality. But I haven't for a while now and I think that my better way of living might be a part of why.

Anyhow, I can't keep writing all morning, need some sleep now. Time's up, 5:19.