Feel alive

And suddenly I forgot how to breathe again. And I forgot the window is open and it's kinda cold in here. Cause I'm not. Damn, this must be the best day in a long time. Just saying. Now I'm just trying to remember how to breathe again and maybe, just maybe I'll also try to wind down a bit. But probably not. I'm riding the high and it's fantastic. I might be completely wrong but my hopes are high. Sky high. I don't care if it will hurt like hell if they are not met later in reality, I don't care cause I'm in love.

To be honest with you, I'm not 100% sure as to why I feel so happy all of a sudden. If I can figure it out it would be easier to maintain this feeling. But I should go to bed like this every night. And another positive thing: I shifted to the light me again! Wow, I've missed that half of me. Almost like missing another person, which was a little weird for me. Like how can I miss myself? Mind fuck.

I don't care if I'm okay with sharing this much with you, cause I think you deserve so get a happy text from me after all that darkness that's been going on. Though this has been a really good week, but also a really bad one. I can't exactly explain it, other than that it has been super intense. I can't say I'm complaining though, cause what is feeling alive if not intensity?