Malfunction

What is it with me and technical devices!? They all seem to malfunction around me for no good reason. It's enough just being in the same room as someones computer, DVD-player, microvawe or whatever and suddenly they go all haywire. Not always of course, and mostly when I'm in a bad mood. I must be letting off some strange energies... it's gotta be something about my aura. I've had four computers in six years.

They get overheated, they malfunction and eventually crash and break down. It's true that I've been violent with them sometimes, but my anger outburst are the cause of them crashing, not the other way around. The computer I have now is only six months old, and it's already acting weird. Or rather, it's been acting weird already to begin with, even though nothing is wrong with it. Nothing! I'd like to think I've been very kind to it, only verbal abuse and sometimes I act out on the keyboard and the mouse. The computer itself and the screen haven't sustained any sort of physical violence. So whatever is up with it, it's got nothing to do with that. It got viruses not long after I just got it, but thankfully that has not reoccured. Programs malfunction for no reason and then starts working again for no reason. It shuts down without any kind of warning and then it's working properly again. It's making me nuts! And the more angry I get, the more it malfunctions. I'm killing it with my aura!

This goes for electricity as well. Lights flicker and go off short after I put in a new light bulb, fuses that goes out when they shouldn't, things getting overheated or not warm enough. My energies seem to make technical devices and electricity unstable. Pretty damn annoying! Especially since I'm so dependent on them to work, in this industrial age I mean. Yeah, my computer just shut itself off when I was in the middle of something tonight and I had written some crap I didn't have a chance to save. Just like that. I got pretty angry, and now my throat hurts. My anger management isn't going so well... They should have classes like that in Sweden! Or maybe they do? Might be worth checking out.

You know that saying "seeing red"? Well, for me it's closer to seeing a dark, twisting void with blood splatter. I completely lose control over my body and I can't stop my fists or my screams. It's scary, losing control like that. It's like being drunk, you can't just stop being drunk no matter how much you want to. It doesn't matter how much tea I drink, cigarettes I smoke, pills I take or how much I talk about it. I just have to wait for the hangover.