I just want to say something, for everyone who waits for my autobiography to finish and get published. Because of the risk of messing up my gender transition I won't make my book public until I have finished my transition.
It's because of Anna, as you might have already figured out. If I was to even whisper the word "psychosis" in any kind of circumstances where any of the shrinks or doctors I see can hear, I won't get my gender reassignment treatment. They are VERY sensitive on that matter. I had to work my brains out for years to wash off my "psychotic symptoms" mark in the chart from late 2005. I realise now: that was why Uppsala messed things up for me. For a little episode that happened four years before I even went to the team there. I'm scared for my life on that matter, and with damn good reasons. As I was literally dying to get the help I needed from them, just a week ago, I won't fuck this up for anything in the world.
So if I was to get this book public as soon as it's done, there's a risk the psychiatric departments will get a hold on the information that I have written in it, and I'd rather take a bullet than to take that, probably quite small risk. So I guess what I'm saying is that I don't know when I will be making
my book public. It all depends on how long this is gonna take. Hopefully
in a few years, but I would estimate probably four or five more years.
It sucks, I know, but I have to be patient.
I hope you understand.
Yours sincerely, John Lang.
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