I haven't had that much to report this weekend. I had my birthday, well technically that is today, but I celebrated it with my family on Saturday. And then I stayed one night there as well. No, two nights.
I'm going to Stockholm next Tuesday (meeting in Huddinge, you know) and my mother is coming along to guide and support me as usual. So I'm trying to figure out what to say at that meeting, and what to do in the city afterwards. Cause the ferry won't depart until 19:30 or something like that. Could have been 20:30 for all I know. Late, however, and the meeting ends at... roughly estimated 15:00 o'clock. So a lot of hours doing absolutely nothing, whatever or anything.
I don't even remember who it is I'm gonna have that meeting with. A new person for me, I think. Apparently it was important, but other than that I don't know. What I can think of is that it could be regarding the top surgery I just sort of recently had done. But other than that I really have no idea what we're supposed to discuss during that meeting. I know sort of what I want to ask and stuff, but somehow I don't think that would be the right person or the right meeting for it.
Yes, there will be another meeting, sometime in July, but I don't know exactly when it's gonna be yet. That will be with the usual people I meet there, so this one next week is a bit of I don't understand what it's supposed to be for. I guess I will find out when I'm there. Hopefully it's not just gonna be a ten minutes chat with information they could have given me on the phone. It's just that it's so damn far to travel there and back again, so it just seems to damn pointless if it isn't gonna be more than that.
I want shitloads of information, lots of too damn private questions asked and discussed for at least an hour. Call me weird, but that's just me.
I want to go to the gym tomorrow. Got to, want to, need. I wanna be in shape for the summer, or at least in better shape than I am in now. Missed taking a walk today, but I'll make up for it tomorrow. And I'm gonna make my mother call the district health care centre, cause I'm really getting worried about my nipples now. They don't seem to heal, like at all. Some of the scabs are falling off, around the edges, but the stitches are still there and it just doesn't look that good.
It might not be the best source, but I've seen a lot of YouTube videos of other transguys post op, and their scabs fell off after about two or three weeks. It's been five weeks now for me, and as I said, not so much progress. Especially as the horizontal wounds healed up fast and nicely. Probably gonna have a little chat with Satan next time he shows up and ask what the hell is this, keep your fucking side of the bargain!
Yeah, I still hear him speaking to me sometimes. Just out of the blue he seems to show up. Is it the real Satan or just a hallucination? Well, people have heard the voice of God for centuries, so why not? I think it could be, but I can never be sure of course. Cause if he isn't real, then blimey it's weird that all my prayers came true.
I'm trying to embroider The Birthday Massacre's logo on a piece of black cloth as a patch for a jacket. I'm not using the cross stitch method this time. Found an old jeans vest with patches I had made myself through embroidery and they look really good. So it kinda sparked an interest or piece of inspiration for making more of those, but with bands that I listen to nowadays.
Back then it was mostly metal, and now it's more goth and genres similar to goth like dark wave, synth, ebm and such. First I though that Bauhaus is simple to make, but then I remembered that I never listen to them and I'm not so much into them. Never really was. So I decided The Birthday Massacre for starters (still can't stop listening to them) and then maybe I'll move on to
And yes, I've already made one of Men Without Hats, just the logo and not the band name, in cross stitches. And I made a tiny ankh as well. But in the future if I want to make the band names I need to use this other method. I don't know what it's called, but I'll post a picture when I'm done and you can figure it out yourselves. If I finish it, that is.
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