I've just sworn my life over to Satan. Well, yesterday, actually. So now I'm a satanist, definitive. Bad idea? We'll see about that. I feel better already. He gave me good advice and it worked like a charm. Maybe it's just me being psychotic as well as neurotic, moody, hyper or whatever the fuck I was feeling. But it doesn't matter, I'm grateful it worked however the idea came to me. The idea was to change the music I was listening to, to a specific band and a specific playlist.
It feels good to not be an agnostic anymore, it was like trying to balance a scale that would always tip over one way or the other. Made me dizzy. Just wanna add that this is a decision both me and Anna agreed to, which makes it even more right.
Yesterday I only did what my mind wanted, so I'm gonna make it up today by only doing what my body wants and needs. It's only fair. Started out with a breakfast of yoghurt, a piece of full grain bread and two cups of tea. I must have been very tired when my mania calmed down at 5.00 o'clock yesterday, cause an hour later I crawled into bed, fell asleep and didn't wake up until 14.30 today.
We'll see if I'm up for some more writing today. If I can just mellow out the shakes from the nicotine deficiency I created yesterday, and by sleeping for 20 hours.
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