Uncontrollable pain

I had the most horrible headache tonight, or late evening. I crawled up in my bed, shaking and crying uncontrollably. I never cry from physical pain, but when it hits 9 in Mankoski pain scale, it's beyond horrible. If it had gotten any worse I'd been unconscious. That would have been better, come to think of it! When it's that bad no medicine can help, confirmed on wikipedia that when pain exceeds 7 or 8 on the scale even strong painkillers doesn't really help much at all. I've been on 7 and 8 before, but I can't recall ever reaching 9 before. Oh well, I survived that too!

It made me kinda weird though, no surprise perhaps. I don't know what you might know about pain like that, but it can make you delirious. I fantasized about Vargyl and whispered to him, at the best of my ability, to hold me. I remember getting angry at him for not being real and cried some more. Then I told him that I was sorry. I don't think I've acted like that around my imaginary boyfriend before.

I'm not quite sure what happened that caused this. I had quite bad headache, but manageable, since I woke up yesterday, but it wasn't until my uncle and his girlfriend came by for dinner that it escalated. There was a lot on my mind and I was extra sensitive after having just come out of the loony bin. So add some stress, red wine (though I just had one glass) and possibly a little dash of migraine but when pain gets that bad it gives you migraine symptoms whether you have a migraine or not. I pushed myself a little too far, wanted to be social, so when I told them I really had to go inside and rest, I should had done that about an hour earlier. It didn't hit the roof immediately though, so I thought I was gonna be fine if I just rested a few minutes. But no... three hours later when I finally could take my Imovane I thanked all the doctors in the world for that amazing pill that would knock me out in seven minutes. Then I slept for ten hours and now I'm fine. Well, I still have a little more than usual headache, but I'm not complaining!