Small steps

I just bought some snuff. Thought I'd give it another try. Nicotine but no smoke, was my idea behind that, since it's not the nicotine that is harmful and I don't want to stop filling my blood stream with it.

Went to my local district health care centre just now. It was a check up on my mastectomy wounds and to redo the bandage and stuff like that. Saw my nipples look good as well, though a little dark. But it's most likely just scabs and such. Good size for them and I've lost almost all sensation as of now, which is to me pretty damn awesome!

I know that many transguys don't want to lose sensation in their nipples post surgery, but I really want that. It's because it's very uncomfortable for me to have them touched, even just feeling my shirt against them, and it's always been that way for me since puberty. So I hope I won't regain so much sensation once it's healed. I even told my surgeon to go for the technique that will most likely leave them numb. So yeah, it's a good thing that I can't feel them right now, and I hope it stays that way.

Apparently I'm gonna have to wear this binder thingy for three weeks! Gonna have another check up on Monday and from there on I'm supposed to redo the bandage myself between showers. That's good, cause then I can keep an eye on it so that it heals nicely.

It already feels like every morning I wake up it's healed a bit more. It gets less and less sore and I slowly become more mobile. I continued walking after my visit to the district health care centre, all the way down to the grocery store and that went fine.

So, my idea now is to stay this healthy (no smoking) during and through the following three weeks, and take some pictures when I get to fix the bandage myself after showering. Thinking about posting before- and after pictures on a site called Transbucket as an anonymous user. Maybe on other trans related websites as well, but I won't make my before surgery pictures public like that. I suppose you understand why.