Clothing hysteria

Or I can just buy new pants... Think I'll have to suck it up and buy stretch jeans (they itch and I associate them with middle aged women), cause this isn't working. I look like shit in regular jeans because of the way my body is shaped. My hips are more narrow now, but nothing below them is in any way near narrow.

Pants of 36" sit too high up which makes my waist/hip difference look more prominent (not desirable) and if I wear them lower they get saggy under my ass and all the way down to my ankles but I can just barely button them. If they are 34" I have to have them all the way to my waist for them to fit anywhere else... see my problem here is more like several problems.

A unisex model might work too. My leather pants are unisex and they look good on me, though they're a little too tight as of now. I'm getting tired of hiding in workers/cargo pants and would rather wear something more close to flattering. And more often wear button down shirts rather than t-shirts. I wanna pass and I wanna look good.

It's hard to find good fitting and nice looking clothes second hand, but I can't afford new clothes, so gotta keep looking, I guess. Almost all of my shirts are too big and now that both my chest and hips are smaller I think smaller shirts will actually fit me better than they did before. Shirts that are actually my size (and have been from the start) that now might actually fit. I mean, my size might fit.

Confusing? Well, let me put it this way: there are no men's clothing made to fit transguys' bodies. Or female bodies, for that matter. But I just have this urgent need to upgrade my style a bit. Not really changing it that radically, cause I do have all that stuff already, except from useful pants that is.

Why does it have to be so damn difficult with pants!? I know it's not just women who have problems with finding pants that fit well, it goes for a lot of men as well, trans and cis. Sorry about my sudden clothing hysteria, I'm just fed up with my inability to find something to wear and dealing with my gender dysphoria.

I have literally picked just one outfit and gone with it for years now, just because I couldn't deal with trying to find other outfits that work. Like I've just given up on the whole deal with fashion or whatever because of how damn dysphoric I've been (and still kinda am). I have to do something about it, I can't just hide forever.