The answer is yes

Y, yes I'm still here. I know you can't, but you still matter to me, you still mean a lot to me. I think about you a lot but I don't always have the words either. I go through shorter periods of feeling too much or nothing at all. So I don't always know what to say and remain silent until I know, whichever state I'm in. But I still care even when I can't think of anything to say too. I know that's not always easy to take in, or to always trust. That's one the reasons I don't mind at all reminding you of my presence, my care for you and that I have no intention of leaving. I still hope and think you'll get through this, and I still want to support you as well as I can on your way. I just don't always know how, but I try. Watching over you from afar, yes, I'm still here.