I'm still trying to find a somewhat solid description of demons. They are beings of chaos, how does one describe that? Chaos is something you cannot understand, since when you understand it, it ceases to be chaos. And if you understand demons, they are no longer chaotic and therefor per definition not demons anymore. Get my drift? I don't.
Everyone seem to have different opinions on the matter, making everyone who feel they are dark and chaotic potential demons. What makes my case so different then? Among Otherkin, the race category "demons" seem to be in widest range and hardest to pin point exactly what it means. There are so many types of demonic beings in myth, folklore and religion it's insane.
Oh, and one more thing! I don't think I've ever heard of the term "species dysphoria" before today. That term makes sense to me. Or, well, having that makes no common sense, but I sure have it! Born as the wrong gender, and the wrong species... and in the wrong universe... not so strange I hate my life.
I find myself deleting more than I'm writing today. No, that makes no sense, and is in the literal sense impossible. I can't make up my mind about what I want to post today. Not too much of the same infinate, useless ramblings that no one will read, or will make my readers eyes bleed. Not too private stuff I'll end up regretting later. I don't feel very productive today. My thoughts are a scattered mess and I'm tearing my hair out to make some sense of it.
Soundtrack: Alphaville's "Euphoria"
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