Thoughts of tonight

21:32
Ugh, a lot of shit I have to take care of today. Clean the dishes, take out the trash, pack for visiting my family tomorrow and spending Midsummer's with them. I just don't want to leave this place in a mess before I go. I also don't quite know what to pack. What clothes to bring. I don't know if we'll have guests over and I don't want to be under dressed if so. I'll get right on to that in a moment, no rush really.

22:43
I still feel weird, like I'm actually somewhere else or like just deeper inside myself in some way. Though I'm not completely forgotten and unwanted and I know that, which is super sweet. I still miss K of course, and it feels like he's so far away. Which he is, and that might have something to do with me feeling that way.

00:25
There, finally finished with doing my hair. It took one and a half hour to bleach it the second round (first was yesterday) and then dye it with white toner, rinse and treat with conditioner. Now it's all white and nice for Midsummer's. Still haven't figured out exactly how long to leave the white toner in my hair. Had it in for 15 minutes this time and it got a little purple so I had to schampo it which took care of the problem. So maybe just 10 minutes next time. Damaged hair really tends to act like a sponge when it comes to hair dye.

I'm still pondering about what I'm gonna do with my hair by autumn/winter when it's grown out a bit. Shorter on one or both sides and add an extreme colour but can't figure out if I want blue or green with the white. Yes, I still want most of it to be white. Blue would look nice to keep this "frosty" look, but green would be nice cause I've never had green hair before and I kinda want to try it sometime. Maybe I could start with blue and later do it green instead if I want to, cause I think it would look better with blue.

I still want to have my hair rather short, I kinda like that now. I'll go with the long elvish hair later in my life. Though, with the first hairstyle I have in mind, I'll probably look even younger than I already do. That is a problem, haha.