Ranting

I cry again, shiver again and feel the shock waves within me as I think and write down everything that comes to my mind. I wish I had some cake, I wish I had some wine. Maybe getting drunk could clear my head a bit? It's a thought. Put a soft shimmer on the rough edges, smooth out the surface. Make it easier to process things.

Maybe I'll buy some wine after school tomorrow. I can't focus on anything at all. Everything is so blurry at this point. I try to clear up the mist but I'm not sure if it's working. I try to form words but can't find the right ones.

I found a matte deep purple nail polish in my mess while cleaning up my apartment a couple of weeks ago, so now that I've cut down my long nails (they were a pain in the ass to maintain, so fuck it) I painted it onto them as well. It's so deep that it almost looks black. I do have a regular shiny deep purple nail polish as well, and if I had the energy I guess I could create some really neat effects with the combination of the shiny and the matte one. I think it's gonna look good together with my purple velvet coat as well, so I'm thinking of wearing it at school tomorrow.

I'm trying to distract myself a bit with world of warcraft but my mind just isn't even in it. Got a level 27 balance druid to level 29 and switched her to feral instead. Back and forth between balance and feral, I'm incapable of making up my mind when it comes to that particular character. And I'm always hesitant to create new worgen cause their starting zone is so tedious.

Damn, I find myself ranting nail polish and WoW characters as if that's interesting to anyone but myself. I'm so restless and I can't think straight, I can't really do anything other than drown in my thoughts and feelings. No they're not bringing me down into the darkness again, they're bringing me someplace else. Someplace new.

I'm so tired, I think I'm gonna sleep soon, if my damn nails would just dry sometime.