All I know

All I look for is nowhere to find
I can't find them cause they're all in my mind
It doesn't matter where I go
it all hurts and it starts to show

All the anger, anxiety and madness
turned into emptiness, apathy and sadness
when the mind is too tired to feel
and the heart too damaged to heal

I crave nothing but for the pain to lighten
I'm not scared of death, not the easiest to frighten
and everyone I love or in other ways care for
can't be my only reason - to live or to die for

I have to make it all matter to feel awake
cause every second I waste is more than I can take
all the feelings inside me are too big to handle
and all that ever happens is just random

No matter what I wish to do or want
I'm always hindered by what I can't
and though it doesn't matter what I do
I know my feelings are real and I really need you