A gay day

Just a quick entry with a couple of today's thoughts. First two paragraphs I wrote around 10am this morning, the rest within the last hour or so. This entry is the total opposite to my previous one. It's been a good day. Wow, it's been a long time since I last said that. A good day? Was a while ago.

I just woke up and remember my dreams! One of them was really nice and woke me up with a smile. It was super gay and sweet. Lots of women flirted with me, and I was kissing, making out and just playfully goofing around with them. That was probably the nicest dream I've had in a very, very... very long time. Cause it was just so sweet, light-hearted and fluffy feel-good. No one treated me bad in that dream, and I didn't feel bad in any way, it was just flirty, cuddly and giggly. Soft, fun, sweet and sexy. And I was seen/treated as a woman, entirely, and also I had nice boobs that made me feel good about being topless and touched.

Because I haven't been able to remember my dreams since detransing until now, I don't know if boobs have been on me in any previous dreams or not. But if not, then this was the first dream of mine ever to show my body as looking different from what it actually looks like in reality. And that makes me smile really wide, cause that's very dysphoria alleviating! I felt so good and nice about my body in that dream. Like I had no discomfort about what I looked like and just thrived in all that cosy lesbian cuddling. The dream was only mildly sexual, like soft porn, I guess. Like there were no pussies involved in the dream, but all that deep french kissing and intense boob squeezing and topless flirting was really not straight. And everyone was horny for me and each other in that dream. Like it was just one huge lesbian orgy. I think it might have been a party, but I'm not sure, it was sometimes outdoors in like a sparse forest area and sometimes a city, and sometimes it was in indoors areas like someone's home. Maybe the frequent changing of settings represent that I have/will always love women regardless of where I am? I like that thought though.

Oh fuck, I'm on qruiser and this super hot woman messaged me... several hours ago and now we're in deep conversation. She lives far away though (in fucking south Sweden) but she invited me to go to a concert in Denmark with her and then go to her place and party and well yes also fuck... and I'm kinda seriously considering it. I mean, she's not just hot, she's pretty much the exact kind of girl I want to meet, near perfect damn it. So it's kinda hard to just say no cause of distance.

She looks kinda punk-rock butch and very hardcore but has like some sweetness to her as well and that's just super enticing for me. Also a great looking body as far as I can see from her photos. Kinda curvy thin and a bit muscular. If I had a type for women she would be it. She's around my age. Personality-wise I really dig her too. Like kinda brutal and very straight forward, but she's kind too and brags about being very good at giving amazing orgasms... Like is she for real even?! And yeah, she's definitely into women, told me she's been in serious relationships with women and isn't even into men. She thinks I'm really sexy too. Also, she's trans mtf. But that has no bearing on how I'm attracted to her and wanting to fuck her. I'm just kinda... ah, unf?

I think I've gotten a pretty good connection with her already too. Like at least I notice some kind of spark of sexiness going on between us. But granted, meeting in real life may be different. But in my experience, usually for the better. We'll see though, where that may or may not lead. But I think I'd at least really like just hanging out with her even if sex somehow turns out disappointing for one or both of us. But fuck I can't say I'm not excited about the possibilities! Oh, my! But I'll need to sleep now. After I've taken my vagifem and masturbated to some random fantasies about her. Considering how constantly horny I've been these past several hours, I think cumming will be way too easy. I'm gonna try to draw it out with some serious edging, I think.

Not to brag but I'm just literally too good at making myself cum, especially these days. If I'm not holding back and edging at least some 5-10 times, it's over in like 10 seconds and I'm too post-orgasm-hyper-sensitive to be able to continue. What a first world "problem" huh? But yeah, bed now. I'll catch ya' later.

I'll call this entry "A gay day" cause the word gay also means happy, so you've got a double-meaning there.