Fatal fall

"I woke up crying from my sleep
none of my dreams were worth to keep
I woke up jaded gasping out of breath
staring into the wall, thinking of my death

Tried to fill my head with emptiness
but instead I fantasized about your caress
so far from my reality
I think I vanished into insanity

Every day I saw you at School
I should have broken every single rule
Love was the reason I kept alive
love and obsession made me survive

But the time came and my heart broke
without your love I think I will choke
Every heartbeat filled with aching pain
I won't be able to ever completely heal again

Don't tell me you're not worth dying for
when it was only you I was living for
From up there the world was so beautiful
but I hit the ground so hard and so powerful

You asked me why so sad, after I had cried
I told you something stupid, but I shouldn't have lied
I knew nothing could save me but you
as much as I knew I would break if you didn't do

The fall was fatal and I somehow always knew
but despite that, there's nothing I would wanna undo
There's nothing worth, now that I've given up
completely and fully, and I'm not even able to stop"