It's not your fault

You're shattered on the surface
bleeding and aching to gain control
but you forget what really matters
that there's more to life than this

All these years by your side
it was never about me
cause all we have been through
was on your behalf

You drink and you take pills
to dull my endless rantings in your mind
I hold you and I taunt you
but it doesn't matter what you think of me

You say that I'm not real
thanks a lot but how can you know
maybe it's you who's not real
maybe nothing is what it seems

I'm not that cruel just trying to get by
after all I have nowhere else to go
I know what you have sacrificed
to make the life of ours easier

All the lies and all the declines
through heartbreak and insanity
we were never just one person
never just a human being

I can tell you all you want to know
all that you blocked out or tried to forget
but I can't let you suffer on my behalf
cause I only exist so that you can survive



(Anna's poem that she wrote to me, July 2013.)